Babies of Mine

You were never born into this world.
However, thats not to say I didnt love you I still do.
1997 and 1999 both conceived February two years apart exactly.
Ironically, you both died at 8 weeks into my two pregnancies.
And I so grieved for you - both of you.
I think it was even worse the second time.
I grieved for the first all over again the Loss was unbearable.
Was it something I did? Why did you both die?
Im a spiritual person -In so many ways
And have been to see many clairvoyants in my Lifetime.
Several have told me that you were both girls.
That my Nan is looking after you both - as you grow up in the spirit world.
I think of you both frequently - Thinking of the ages youd both be now.
What you would look like, what you would wear?
What things youd like to do, the colour of your hair.
Would you be stubborn, shy, or extrovert?
Would you be creative, sensitive - maybe tomboys?
Would you look like me ? Be similar to me in your ways?
As you know, Im no longer with your Dad.
I know you watch over me and you see it all.
You saw how he treated me the mental and physical violence.
You were best off not being a part of that situation.
He may have turned on you, my lovely girls.
And you know, although I took the violence that he dealt me
I would have killed him if he had harmed either of you.
You would have loved Peter my wonderful Husband now.
He would have treated you as he treats me with love and respect.
It must be hard for him to listen when I talk about you both
Another man fathered you (if thats what you can call your dad)
But, he would love you as his own, had you been here with us, in our world.
I just wanted to tell you both that I still think of you often.
Youre not forgotten - just because you are not here physically.
You probably already know, but its always nice to be told that you are loved.
Do nt give your Great-Nanny too hard a time, girls!
Shell tell you off, and be cross with you both!
I know, from personal experience, when I was your age!
I also know that her heart will swell with pride when she looks at you both.
Say hello to her, my Dad too, give them a hug and a kiss from me.
There are so many others your family you must have met up with them.
Say hello to everyone and I hope you will all meet me when I arrive there.
There is no time, not where you are. So however long it takes me
I will see you, my daughters, when it is my time. Youll know when that is.
This was meant to be a poem for you both, but its turned into a letter!
But just expressing myself, to you both, like this, has Helped me feel better.
(See, some of it rhymes!!) God Bless Girls. Lots of love from Mummy xxxx

I have been writing Poetry for many years and regularly have it published in print. My Poetry is published by Forward Press and in many other publications. So I'm now putting my Poetry online. I'm married to my husband Peter. I publish my Poetry on my Blog jo-hale-Poetry at jo-hale-Poetry.blogspot.com/ and on 8hop.com My Poetry on 8hop.com. I also have information about my Poetry at www.squidoo.com/jo-hale-Poetry.

Author:: Joanne Hale
Keywords:: Poetry, Babies, Loss, Sadness, Grieving, Help, Life, Death, Birth
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